I was sitting on a bench in that torrid afternoon..tired,walking here and there; settling debts, assignment,and research for the coming assignment..man,I did felt busy!
While I sat,drinking a can of 'sengkuang cina' my mind floated somewhere else..
What's the sole purpose I'm here anyway?I realized that I've been abandoning some of my reasons to be here lately..the feeling of being unworthy,unlucky,and helpless crept slowly into my heart..I felt like crying suddenly.
I watched people around me evolve into something everyday..how I've wasted my short live on things I'm not supposed to do..I realize something,as long as my heart keep complaining,talking nonsense on people,having this negative aura around me,I'll get out of this place learning nothing,and be nothing..This is so suffocating..where are my so-call views?Devastated..how bad could it be?..it feels like I'm in a strong current,trying my hardest to get out.What's happening?If this is the change that I'm looking for I rather not change..
Where has my passion gone?Is it because of the people around me?The environment or its just me?Damn,I really hate myself if this is true..
Tring to go back and be the original you is not hard,once a good friend of mine said:
In life we always have a choice,choose..
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