The Organizer..

I was rummaging through my desk and found my first planner..I have it during my matriculation and brought it with me when I first enter the uni..forgetting the main reason why I scrambled over my belongings, it was always excited to see those colourful writing on the planner.Such a hectic schedule..there were also these hospital card(appointment card),some prayers given by my previous mentor,calendar,bank slips and some mini theater poster that I planned to watch (but didn't make it on time!)
Flipping over through some pages, a square-folded A4 paper fell onto my lap..thinking it was just some recycled paper I used before,I nearly threw it into the waste paper bin when I saw the word 'LIST'..I let out a faint shrieked the moment I unfolded the paper..It's the list I've been looking for since the start of this new semester..
See,this is one good thing about going through old things sometimes..I'm really glad!!

That list was, and still important to me..it's more like the list of things I'd love to do,visit,achieve,own and so much more..it's my list of life..how ambitious I could be sometimes can truly be seen in that list..*laugh* Seriously,I really hope that I would be able to achieve all those things.It will be great to explore new things,learning about people around you and surely a better platform to judge yourself..I pray hard not to let it be just a forlorn hopes and dried-out dreams..

Having the organizer or planner somehow has been motivating me to keep on going and doing my work and carry on with my plans enthusiastically.At some point,I'm grateful that I kept and still,keeping one..

A Moment Ago..

I was sitting on a bench in that torrid afternoon..tired,walking here and there; settling debts, assignment,and research for the coming assignment..man,I did felt busy!
While I sat,drinking a can of 'sengkuang cina' my mind floated somewhere else..
What's the sole purpose I'm here anyway?I realized that I've been abandoning some of my reasons to be here lately..the feeling of being unworthy,unlucky,and helpless crept slowly into my heart..I felt like crying suddenly.

I watched people around me evolve into something everyday..how I've wasted my short live on things I'm not supposed to do..I realize something,as long as my heart keep complaining,talking nonsense on people,having this negative aura around me,I'll get out of this place learning nothing,and be nothing..This is so suffocating..where are my so-call views?Devastated..how bad could it be?..it feels like I'm in a strong current,trying my hardest to get out.What's happening?If this is the change that I'm looking for I rather not change..
Where has my passion gone?Is it because of the people around me?The environment or its just me?Damn,I really hate myself if this is true..

Tring to go back and be the original you is not hard,once a good friend of mine said:
In life we always have a choice,choose..

Oh My..

Our family were having a party to celebrate Raya and since MKB we haven't opened the hampers yet..lots were done on the day as we're having it at night.Party means being happy and enjoying your meals (for me) but bad things will somehow happen when you're having too much fun I guess..
This time,it's not me who were hit by the thunder but my precious aragorn..
Well,practically he's my laptop, and I happen to named him 'aragorn' since it was one of my favourite names..sound so ancient..(reminds me of Beowulf) :)
So, somebody played this flour and water war after the slide shows ended and somehow one of the balloons which was filled with water accidentally hit my aragorn..

My blood turned cold when I was informed by Mama that my laptop was 'flooded'
That very night was the longest-cursing night ever..regaining my consciousness from anger,I was a bit relieved to be told that only a small portion of water hit a small portion of my laptop..ok..

Late that night, mama helped to dried it under the cool fan air.I was too sleepy to be bothered about it yet.Until like next afternoon,I was about to start typing my assignment when the screen turned blank,and flashed a few time,then suddenly the screen looked like a negative film colour..horrified,I panicked that my assignment would 'disappeared' and lucky sab asked me to quickly transferred important stuff into the pen drive..

Apart from spending almost the whole day staring blankly at the screen,I couldn't focused much on my work.Who would not be pissed? I felt like kicking and punching some people..lucky there were some really funny friends around and they cheered me up..still,damn it!It just sucks enough when you were in the middle of tons of assignments..
Next time do me a favour,don't watch your mouth,watch your feet,your hand and your eyes!!Where they are going do matters as they would damage something on the way!

Once Upon A Time..

"If you see the magic in a fairy tale, you can face the future."

~Danielle Steel~
March 21, 1985

Once you're in,its hard to let go..life is just too plain sometimes because we never try to cheer it up.Doing simple things sometimes makes life seems better.So go,find your way then..